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Sunday, October 9th, 2005
12:02 pm
i was bored so i stole this off toshi who stole it off jan ^_^, i used to love the original series, i shall continue mourning the loss of my con job now, poor kuni they were so young.

Your Life on Battlestar Galactica by bookwormdarlin
Your name
You hail from
You live to
Starbuck admires yourBiting wit
Baltar was heard whisperingHe is jealous of your looks
Adama always calls you"cunning"
Apollo wishes youwould smile more
Tigh once drank to yourNumerous crash landings
Your Call Sign isMidas
Your chances of being a cylon: 76%
Your chances of reaching earth: 90%
Quiz created with MemeGen!

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Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
1:21 pm - checking in
wow not written in this for ages huh?

well i have been busy with training now i got bunked up a grade at work. also had my entry to do for the imaf comp but i dun think im gonna win that.

i'm going to my first real concert!! yay in jan im going to see "HIM" they are a finnish goth type band, fairly big over here and breaking into the USA this week with a new album.

Chibi goes in for the start of her cancer treatment next week so i'm hoping shes gonna be ok.

The pups got HUGE i have a full grown wolf galloping around the house whil;e im trying to study, its a lil off putting to say the least!

I'm not sure on the status of kunicon, the sites been down for weeks now, no site, no atendees, no con. No ones got back to me so I'm guessing I've been dropped, they said they'd tell me by sept and it's almost the end now so to everyone i worked with, i will miss you heaps, i'll continue to say hi online but i prolly wont be seeing you all ever again, as i only visited the states to do the cons. no cons, no ele, when planning holidays i'd sooner go east, to places that dun have hurricanes and twisters, i may go to canada again though.

anyway thats my update i guess, take care mi amigos

current mood: blah
current music: HIM " wings of a buterfly"

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Friday, September 9th, 2005
11:08 pm - gym bunny
it's official, im a yuppie banker, i joined a gym. And i'm addicted to the high i get off exercise lol.
i'm doing 500-1000m swimming a day then weights, 25 mins cross training, 30 on the bike and extras.

i better look damn hot with all this work, ill let ya know when i can actually move.


as to film directors, well i am a blonde ^_^


Alfred Hitchcock
Your film will be 50% romantic, 38% comedy, 40% complex plot, and a $ 46 million budget.
One of the best film directors EVER to exist. Your life must be something special if we're going to dig up Hitch to direct the film version. His films are studies of masterful technique and visual storytelling. He also has six distinct signatures he puts in each of his films, one of them being his fleeting cameo walk-by appearance. I think another one is that the leading man is always wrongly persecuted for something he didn't do, and the leading lady is usually a blonde. He made many more films than just The Birds and Psycho. PLEASE go rent, buy, or view North By Northwest or Vertigo!




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You scored higher than 62% on humor

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You scored higher than 62% on complexity

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You scored higher than 92% on budget
Link: The Director Who Films Your Life Test written by bingomosquito on OkCupid Free Online Dating




well...yeah...love stinks friends are forever ^_^ just have fun




Your Ideal Relationship is Friends with Benefits

You're not looking for anything serious... just something hot!
And you're little black book (or cell phone) always hooks you up.
You want nothing more than friends with benefits. No strings.
You also don't mind benefits without the friendship!
<tr><td bgcolor="#B6B6C2" align="center">You Should Learn Japanese</td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#D7D6DE">

You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture.
From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko!
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lol and what is my job? bank teller, yet im fantastically good at it, ah well some jobs ya do for money and some for love , and some to get the funds to do what ya love




Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.

You would make an excellent:

Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor

The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.


current mood: creative
current music: watching jet li movie, drool

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Monday, August 29th, 2005
12:31 am - i am satan...well his lover lol
well i took the quiz and im this^_^ good looking, manipulative and my friend kei's boss cuz shes the antichrist

Satan
You scored 62% Pride, 70% Envy, 57% Ambition, and 52% Deceitfulness!
You are Satan, the consummate villain, and the ascendant figure in the unholy trinity. Throughout history you have been called The Serpent, The Accuser, The Devil, Lucifer, The Prince of the Power of the Air, and The Dragon, among other things. Your 田ompatriots・in the unholy trinity, the Antichrist and the False Prophet, are merely pawns in your futile struggle with God. Though, they probably don稚 know this. This is because you are a master of deception; indeed the Bible calls you 典he Father of All Lies・ You are also very ambitious, and you strive to be in positions of the utmost authority. Unfortunately, it was impossible for you to obtain the highest title in heaven and this is part of the reason why you decided to leave. Of course, you couldn稚 just leave by yourself, so you managed to use your deceptive abilities to get one third of the angels in heaven to join with you in revolt. God put down the rebellion and expelled you from heaven. To most people, it would seem foolish to start a war against God, but pride can sometimes cause people to do foolish things. In heaven, you were the most beautiful and powerful of all angels and you were well aware of this. Unfortunately, you let your pride consume you and your passions led you down the road to perdition. After you were expelled from heaven, you let another one of your attributes consume you容nvy. You knew that you could never defeat God, but you could attempt to destroy humanity, his most beloved creation. Your goal is to bring as many people as possible to suffer in Hell with you. Fortunately for you, but unfortunately for the rest of us, you致e been endowed with all of the attributes necessary (deceptiveness, confidence, ruthlessness, and ambition) to do a terribly good job at this.




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You scored higher than 54% on Deceitfulness
Link: The Which Biblical Villain Are You Test written by MetalliScats on Ok Cupid


current mood: excited
current music: mission impossible

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Friday, August 26th, 2005
5:52 pm - Ele's three ring circus
well i have an agent, my tiny spider story somehow found its way into tv and national news, i had ppl calling me alla time. Also weird people from wales correcting my english sending letters to my home!! what do they know about english? they are welsh! tv ppl were hounding me, photographers, radio ppl, it drove me nuts, i dun wanna be on tv!

And no i didn't get money for any of this, and i can't go anywhere without ppl asking me about the spider story! ugh, fame you can stick it! it would be good if i could write animal books from this though ^_^ " dr grossteins book of animals"

current mood: annoyed
current music: neighbours

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Sunday, August 14th, 2005
3:35 pm - Death bugs from Brazil
EATING HEALTHY IS BAD FOR YOU!!!
I did not get chocolate, i got some nice bananas and what happened, this tiny spider fell off on me, clearly a hatchling. I think, I wont kill it, it's only lil so I brush it off. The bastard bites me. Turns out the lil spiderling was a brazilian wandering spider, twice as deadly as a widow!!

So i get a lump, my arm burns and tingles, a rash comes up, I phone the advice line who say they will phone back in 3 hours ( I have since found out an adult brazilian kills in 2!!) Then i can not breath and my throat starts to close over, so I phone them again, next thing I remember I am in an ambulance with an iv in the back of my hand -_-

Right now I am on drugs and back home, tired and weak all the time and my arm still hurts, if only I had had the chocolate. arachnophobia is not silly or irrational, it is sensible and anyone who tries to tell me otherwise, I shall hit

SPIDERS ARE EVIL AND OUT TO KILL US!! ^_^

current mood: damn spiders!!
current music: "california dreamin" beach boys

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Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
7:30 pm - my true colours.........green and silver
I keep telling everyone I'm and evil wytch, now its official!


SLYTHERIN!
You scored 84% Slytherin, 12% Ravenclaw, 16% Gryffindor, and 20% Hufflepuff!
Or perhaps in Slytherin
You'll make your real friends,
These cunning folk use any means
To achieve their ends.


Slytherins are known for their ambition, guile, and Machiavellian sensiblities.




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You scored higher than 6% on Ravenclaw

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You scored higher than 1% on Gryffindor

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You scored higher than 11% on Hufflepuff
Link: The Sorting Hat Test written by leeannslytherin on Ok Cupid
<tr><td></td><td> You scored as Draco Malfoy. You've grown up in a world where being the best and outshining others both in society and in school was your top priority. You like to make others jealous of you by both your possessions and accomplishments and delight in it when you know you've hurt someone. You really can't stand it when others get more attention than you do or someone goes totally against you and your beliefs. A lot of people probably get a bit annoyed with you. Perhaps you should give credit to others a bit more.

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Draco Malfoy

100%

Severus Snape

94%

Lord Voldemort

88%

Harry Potter

78%

Hermione Granger

78%

Oliver Wood

72%

Ron Weasley

66%

Bellatrix Lestrange

63%

Percy Weasley

59%

Luna Lovegood

56%

Neville Longbottom

56%

Sirius Black

41%

Remus Lupin

28%

Albus Dumbledore

22%

Harry Potter Character Combatibility Test
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current mood: chipper
current music: hedwigs there

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12:05 pm - as we all knew
Fire
Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,
powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,
being fire you are quite strong and powerful,
people look up to you greatly and often seek
your protection. You have the ability to gain
many friends and you are always one people can
count on to do what you say you will do. You
are extremely loyal be it friends or family
you'll stick up for them and you are never
willing to put them in a position that could
hurt them. You know what roll you play in life,
leader, and you intend to let people know it.
Not everyone is capable of leadership but you
certainly have the willpower and flare to do
it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself,
one that can often lead you into trouble. Once
your mind is made up there is no changing it
but no one said that was a bad thing.


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Saturday, July 30th, 2005
11:09 pm - racism and retail therapy
well here i am, white, blonde hair and blue eyes. 60 years or so i'd probably of qualified for hitlers master race. last person you'd expect in a small town with no real ethnic minorities to be a victem of racism. yet sat in a chinese restraunt with my japanese friend, he's given chopsticks and a bowl, im given a plate knife and fork. they thought just because i was white i couldn't use the damn things.

perhaps i should explain my anger, i've been able to use them since i was 5, in fact till i was 6 i could speak chinese. i was in hospital on and off till i was 6, the hospital was next door to a huge china town, so on days when i was well enough for an outing, mum took me there, to eat and shop. all my clothes were chinese style, most of what i ate was chinese. she thought it was a nice place to take me after the stark terminal ward as it had colourful dragons and culture. it's probably why i love dragons and all things oriental today. added too this since i was 14 every chinese new year i cook a 10 dish chinese meal for 8-12 people. my point is NEVER judge people by what you see, the waitress saw i was white and assumed i knew nothing about china, she almost died when i asked for green tea, the ONLY tea i drink. if she'd of asked if i wanted a plate i wouldn't of minded. in this world too often people are judged and classed purely on their skin, if you are muslim you are a terrorist, a skin head you are a nazi. why can't then just say, oh you are a person, lets get to know them and see what they are like?!!

ok * drinks great wall chardonnay* i am calm, rest of my day was fun, i think my new clothes make me look a lil like a person in romafella in gundam wing, or one of jack sparrows crew, lil military/ pirate, but very me. more sinful spending at lush ( bad toshi introducing me to that!!) and on benefit cosmetics. i also indulged in my love of hong kong movies * waves jackie chang dvd* yes i admit, im a big fan of oriental cinema. i was raised on monkey , i blame chibi again ^_^

stay tuned ppl for more crazy announcements " what ele is doing for cancer charity" i gaurentee you wont believe it, but if ya know me ya prolly will. im no good to mum going there there im sorry, i can get up off my ass, doing something mad for charity and help raise money for research to stop other mums getting it though.

now, chinese vampires with katanas need my attention, night guys ^_^

current mood: aggravated
current music: hong kong movie!!

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Friday, July 29th, 2005
7:26 pm - the bright side
ahhh monty python how i love thee! ^_^

i realised i've been a lil blue and not fun of late, manny is right i am a lil meloncoly. since the new year, my husbands gone gay, my best friend died, and my mum got cancer. But as usual i have found a bright side, it just took me a lil to find it ^_^

this is lifes way of saying, do it today, not tomorrow, because you never know you may not have tomorrow. so i've gone and taken up some new martial arts, indulged in sinful retail therapy and i'm back in my laid back horizontal surfer mind set. if the weather would brighten i'd be positively euphoric. so whack on the club music, dig out ya chocolate, hug ya credit card and pass me a margarita damn it , i'm back. be afraid and lock up you sons lol!!


thanks manny ^_^

current mood: optimistic
current music: chinese takeaway music on radio 0.o

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Monday, July 25th, 2005
9:13 pm - cancer and not the star sign
I stand here and the only thing I can think to do is give the finger to the creator and yell fuck you!

for the third time in her life my mother has cancer, one of the most kindest, giving, upbeat people i have ever known has the black dragon once more. shes looked after foster kids, fed the street, healed animals and after surviving cervical cancer.........

she is facing basically anything female plus her bladder being removed, while my slut whore of a step dad who left her is unmarked, and people wonder why i dun believe in a god. i've heard all the " he works in mysterious ways" and " it's all gods plan" bugger is it, if there is a god hes a vindictive evil childish bastard on a par with apollo.

now she has to move outta her house cuz the council say its unsafe, so shes faced with moving house while having cancer treatment, thats IF they can find a place for her and my 15 year old brother to live.

its very hard not to feel like everything that can go wrong has, im still holding back from grabbing my katana and killing my step dad for everything he did to her just to feel there is some justice left in this world. he has a house, health, living off his fat girlfriends money while not paying a penny for my lil brother.

my life seems to be bad, and i feel so cut off as the con has ditched me and my blood tests are on wed but i'd gladly see it much worse if chibi would just get well. i'm just hoping its not third time unlucky for her, shes all the family i have left alive...

current mood: angry
current music: goth radio station

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Sunday, July 17th, 2005
11:11 am - BEAUTIFUL DAY
sometimes, a day comes along that makes ya feel just damn happy and that was yesterday.
so if we cut out hubby who is making me homeless my day was this
sitting on the beach watching buff guys play volleyball, watching the surf contest, hearing live bands playing on the beach that have some of the foo fighters guitarists. drinking frozen margaritas and reading the new harry potter!

i then walked home with mum and watched canstantine, took over china ( played dynasty warriors 5 ^_^) made tacos and tended my sunburn lol. decided to go easy on myself over my diet, i'm a size 10 theres no real fat on me, i'm never gonna be size 6 and my doc says im healthy enough and in my ideal weight.

on the subject of the new harry potter IT ROCKS it's so much better than OOTP and there is lots of draco who's turned into a commanding sexy lil git! and snapes wonderful fun too ^_^ .

well gotta go, it's a beautiful day i'm gonna go to the beach, watch the bmx display and grab me a margerita ^_^ Hard life isn't it? lol

and look how much i rock as a pony ^_^

You Are Subversion!
You are systematic and secretive. Sometimes even very calculating. Most everyone trusts you but they have no idea what really goes on in your head. You are capable of being nice or mean, whatever a situation calls for. You look out for #1.

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current mood: happy
current music: u2 " where the streets have no name"

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Thursday, July 7th, 2005
6:05 pm - IRAQ DIDN'T WORK!!
At 8.57 this moring the world saw how well attacking iraq under the lie of a " war on terror" did. 33 dead so far more injured.

We now know hussain didn't have weapons of mass destruction, nor was he linked with bin laden. all this time fighting a war with iraq, and it achived nothing that it was meant to. while we wasted millions in iraq, they plotted and schemed and used this as a nice distraction to strike again, how the terrorists must be laughing at us.

THIS IS NOT A CALL FOR MORE TIME IN IRAQ!! i'm sure bush will try and spin this to get more support for his personel crusade but it isn't! the day london should be celebrating the olympic bid it is in mourning. London is used to terrorists, small groups of fanatics, we lived with the ira for years, you can't fight terrorists with war, you do it with intelligence and elite groups. like we have done for years with the ira, which meant we never had things like this.

worst of all this has destroyed the g8 meeting, shifting the focus to national security instead of world poverty and climate change. just when we'd come so far..............

current mood: angry
current music: BBC NEWS

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Saturday, June 25th, 2005
4:26 pm - TIRED circle midnight GO
i think i need to sleep! after staying up till 5 am with older bro catching up i believe me and bed have fallen out, i feel like i'm in zombie con mode.

I'M OFFICIALLY SICK OF DRAWING GUNDAM WING !! some big commissions have come in which while good for cash are driving me nuts. I've a heero as the crow tattoo design to do. A surfboard design, a gundam design for a car , a dragon tattoo to do and i gotta see a guy about some t shirt work. * dies* while doing normal 9-5 suck ass please come and bomb the bank job.

trouble with the london expo, the guy running it passed my list over to one of the sponsers to look at..........the sponser is manga uk, who have not done anything new except stand alone complex in a LONG time. I have a feeling they wont want, adv, funimation or ocean guests there just richard who did stand alone. HOWEVER the main sponser of the whole thing is MVM who are the biggest suppliers of anime stuff in the uk so I'm gonna try and convince them to get ppl from their dvd lists over, as they sell ramna, full metal alchemist, dragon ball etc i'm a lil more hopeful.

heh there is also the small matter of if im preggy or not, im eating loads which is odd for me and im tired >_< i better not be!

current mood: listless
current music: depeche mode " enjoy the silence"

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Saturday, June 11th, 2005
1:12 pm - im WHAT?
OK I STOLE THIS FROM DALLAS CREW......MAYBE ITS RIGHT...CEPT THE LAST LINE!!


The Strange Attractor
Category VI - The Strange
Attractor


Though you're not quite sure why, people are drawn
to you like moths to a flame. You really
are too cool for words.


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current mood: lonely
current music: VAST "touched"!

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Friday, June 3rd, 2005
10:34 pm - sex sex and more sex
LIKE WE DIDN'T ALREADY KNOW THIS ?! * grin* reserved brit my ass * snigger*







Your Sexual Lucky Charm: Purple Horseshoes


Your sexual tastes are modern, uninhibited, and more than a little warped.
You crave varity in the bedroom, from different partners to different toys.
Now where did that double ended grape dildo go?



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You Are 24% Pure



You have done it with ropes and chains.

You have done it while insane.


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You Are Glam Sexy


You live for flaunting your sexiness, and you totally work it.
Why not? You've got the goods - you might as well use them.
You're 100% woman, and you never go out without looking your best.
After all, you never can tell when you might bump into Mr. Perfect!



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current mood: horny
current music: blood hound gang

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Sunday, May 22nd, 2005
1:22 pm - yay britain
Ok I will admit I'm not the type to get nationally proud, nor do I have a great desire to wear a union jack BUT after talking to friends in the states, DEAR GOD I'M GLAD I'M ENGLISH!

While I think Blair is but a trained poodle to Bush, I have to admit our leaders do not base their term on any one religion. Due to this we can proudly say " marriage was around long before christianity and will be there long after". This mean we support any union between two people and have gay marriage here with all the laws and rights effecting straight marriage, including adoption.

We take better care of our people, everyone has access to free health care, regardless of how poor or sick they are. NEVER would a dying man be turned away because he couldn't pay! Even visiting foreigners, if injured will be treated for free here. A nation is only as strong as it's people, if the poorest section of a country is sick then your economy crashes as the back bone of the work force isn't strong.

We don't over work our people, everyone right down to the lowest shelf filler is entitled to 4 weeks PAID holiday AND statutory sick pay. Women and men can claim 3 months maternity leave PAID. We have strict laws on hours worked and pay too. Every 6 hours worked means you get 30 minutes break. You have to have at least 12 hours between one shift ending and the next begining, and you can only work 40 hours per week. Our minimum wage is about to hit £5.00 per hour $9.20 to the us.

We hold with the Kyoto convention, reducing pollution, recycling and trying to make a healthier less polluted world for the next generation. commitments to kyoto will not damage the economy, as jobs are made at recycling centres, wind farms, hydro damns, which provide much longer term jobs than fossil fuel industries.

But the thing I really am proud of is our tight discrimination laws, sexism has all been stamped out here, you cant refuse work to anyone based on gender, religion, sexual orientation or disability. In fact every business in the uk has to be accessable to blind, deaf and disabled people.

I find it very strange that America which has an official bill of human rights, gives you so little, it gives you the right to carry a gun to kill but not the right to heal.

current mood: thoughtful
current music: Kelly Osbourne " one word"

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Sunday, April 17th, 2005
2:01 pm - give the finger
to my esteemed co worker who called me a slut because i slept with three of my friends back when i was 19, i can give but one reply * flips the bird*

sometimes people get lonely, or horney or just don't want to spend one more night in a bed by themselves, and rather than going out and having numerous one night stands whenever this feeling arises ( which is slutty not to mention DANGEROUS) they find a like minded friend. they have fun, they can trust the other person and still have their freedom while keeping someone who cares about them.

I appreciate it may go against her beliefs, but come on people no ones hurting anyone and judge not lest ye be judged and all that shit right? not to mention shes about 300 lbs and probably wishes she could do the same.

And to the girls who i unwittingly slept with their boyfriends and hate me yet took him back. WAKE UP !! i didn't rape him, he didn't tell me he was taken he chose to do it on his own! and if he didn't cheat on you with me, it would of been someone else anyway. Remember, i may of had him for the night, but you get to keep him forever while i sleep alone.

sex is a sore point for a lot of people, i however am a pagan, its normal to have a small group of GOOD friends you turn to when you want someone to hold or to work off a lil tension. I'm not sleeping with strangers I'm just filling a gap where a steady boyfriend will never be. it doesn't make me a bad person, i don't go out killing people or stealing, so why do people treat it with such contempt?!

so go ahead and say its abnormal! i'm a black wytch married to a gay man, define normal ^_^ !!

current mood: energetic
current music: jakalope " creeper"

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Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
10:23 pm - kick me in the head i need it
im in need of a man ppl, right now mr jack, jose or jim will do ^_^ well my hubby is still doing a blender job on my brain but round wanting to murder him , or myself we seem to of settled huzah!!

ELE'S GETTING HER PUPPY!! after 2 years i may finally get my husky puppy HEEEEERRROOOOOOO!! ^_^ i'm so excited, closest i can get to my beloved wolf in this damn back water island. i can scare the neighbours, and have a live in model , who needs men after all.......um jack i didn't mean it i love you mr daniels!!

doug finally finished off one of the sketches he did in st lou...i look hot, dear dougie should be my agent ^_^ and i look like im in a vallejo painting, a dream i always had. can't wait to see the rest * coughs* PIGLET ^_^

just had my review at work whoo im top 5 % at my job = BIG BONUS if i dun mess it up! and promotion is looming go me, shame i wanna leave my job huh? ^_^

i need a muse, or a crate of red wine , or both, ive not written or drawn in ages, i'm becomming......normal!! a crime my mother would kill me for if i wasn't still scaring ppl with my tarot readings ^_^ ideas for doug seem easy to think up, but for myself ? NO!!! i'm serendipity in " dogma" can help others, suck ass with myself. any gorgeous male willing to apply email the usual address.

other than that, had hair cut, not eating, running on 3 hours sleep, horny as hell and addicted to diet coke ^_^ SUGOI! ( fan girl japanese for toshi sama ^_~)

current mood: frustrated
current music: manson " personal jesus"

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Sunday, March 20th, 2005
10:26 pm - blue
well anyone who enjoys happy ele i'll ask not to read, i've been drinking and im home alone it makes one a lil blue.

right now my dear husband is away in another persons bed, no one is online, sad as it is to say any friends i have are at least a 6 hour flight away, and even them i unno if it's real or online courtesy.
actually im hoping no one reads this i dun like comming off all depressed it's not fun to be around at all for anyone! im alone REALLY alone i know some people who know me think its great i get male intresst, but its always just sex, and while i LOVE that i'm always the girl ppl wanna screw but never date.

i just hate things here, i want to leave! and no d i'm not like i was a few years ago but i m pretty close, i'd love to call someone but i dun wanna bring them down. so i'm gonna read, pretend im not some sad girl who's husband went gay on her and sleep it off. hopefully tomorrow it'll be sunny and i'll pretend i dun need anyone again, even a friend, thats what i'm like right?

i wish i was.

current mood: depressed

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